29w4d - The return of Pre-eclampsia and Job loss

Today as been a rough day.

Yesterday, my blood results showed that I have high amounts of protein in my urine. 290 when it needs to be below 200. I love that I can email my OB directly and get a response from her. She stated I needed to be prepared in case of hospitalization. I will be monitored weekly with blood work, ultrasound, the whole workup.

My BP is also starting to go up and I have had several high readings the last few days. I am terrified of an emergency c-section. I am terrified of my baby being in the NICU. I am terrified of the magnesium IV again. Just typing these fears are causing me chest pain from anxiety.

I had an ultrasound today with MFM and baby girl is thriving. The tech stated she was FEISTY. And I am like, "Yeah, she is!". Elle was kicking me so strongly last night and lately, I wonder if she's trying to kick her way out early. She is measuring 3lb 6oz in the 60th percentile. Lots of hair on her head and she is already head down. This is great news that she isn't breech as I was told I could be induced if she needed to come early...if it's safe for me to do so.

With Elle being head down already, it makes sense why my hips are killing me. Both my boys didn't flip until later. It literally feels like my hips are being stretched apart with a crowbar! I have had to take Tylenol several times this week due to the pain and pressure.

In other news, my husband got laid off today from his job this morning. We will be ok financially, so I am not worried about money. He received six months severance pay and Cobra insurance coverage and will also get unemployment. It's just a tough job market right now with the unemployment rate so high, so even though he is highly qualified, finding another job in his niche industry will be difficult. And likely, not in Houston, which is fine by me as I would love to move out of state. Yet, this adds another layer of anxiety during this already heightened time of uncertainty.

I believe all things happen for a reason even if you can't see it at the time. I think a new opportunity will come along for Nick soon enough. And in the mean time, if Elle is delivered early, I will have Nick by my side with no distractions to help me recover and go back and forth to the hospital is NICU time is needed. We will all be ok. I know it.