Thoughts

My bleeding finally stopped and yet, I still feel my cycle might get cancelled tomorrow when I go for my follow-up.

What if my lining is still thin? What if there is fluid?  If my cycle is cancelled?

If cancelled, I feel the biopsy was all for nothing as it will be healed by the time I do my next FET. I have been drinking pomagrante juice and putting my legs up on the wall for help with blood flow to the uterus.

I started crying yesterday and Nick held me and told me it would be ok if cancelled, we would just try again next month. I swear some days I don't deserve that man.

FET #4	Labs CD-52	Baseline	CD-6
	1/4/2018	1/18/2018	1/26/2018
Progesterone	0.371	0.145	<0.050
Estradiol	42.8	<5.00	359.9
LH	22.53	4.47	5.48
Endo Thickness	4.96	6.43	9.22
FSH	9.95	2.37
TSH Free T4
HCG Beta	<0.1	<0.1

Still bleeding and possible cancelled cycle

I had my lining checkup today and I am still bleeding from my biopsy almost 2 weeks ago. My lining was thin because of this. It had a triple stripe in some parts, but Dr Yeh stated my uterus looked unstable.

I lost all my optimism in one fell swoop of an ultrasound. I took four months off and starting up again wasn't going as planned. I cried when I got in my car. I texted Nick and he didn't get why I was upset and thought I should be patient with the process. I have been patient! Why is getting pregnant so hard for me? Later on in the day, after my blood results came in, the doctor told me to use an additional patch and come back on Tuesday. My gut tells me this cycle will be cancelled and I will have to start over again.

After doing some research, I bought L-Arginine and after one pill, I had horrible stomach pain and was pretty miserable. I also bought pomagrante juice to drink one 8 oz glass per day.

More bleeding the next day and then it stopped and I have been having cramps. Not sure if this is a good thing or not. 

Cycle #5 / Transfer #4

I started pills and patches while on my girl's trip to Cabo. I also started my period.

So estrogen headache combined with cramps on top of the upset stomach I already had from eating something in Mexico was not how I envisioned my last hooray to be before hopefully getting pregnant again. I rallied and kept my pain and emotions in check. I wasn't at my best, but definitely not my worst.

My projected transfer is February 9th. If successful, I would be due late October. We are transferring one boy embryo this time. Matheson.

I am hopeful. Not stressed. I am going to go about my day to day and be optimistic. I am convinced that I was wanting something that wasn't meant to be. I love my son and being a boy mom. I don't think I was supposed to have a girl. Nick wants a boy to carry on his last name and I hope he turns out to be just like him.

Hysteroscopy/ biopsy

The weather today couldn't have been worse for us to drive in for my hysteroscopy and biopsy. There was ice and sleet on the streets with schools and businesses closed due to road conditions. The surgery center is about 35 minutes away from where we live. My husband and I left early and drove slowly arriving safely with no issues. I was the last patient to be admitted. Everyone else was cancelled in the afternoon and tomorrow. When we left everything was covered in snow.

The nurse had to put the IV in twice as she couldn't find a vein in my left arm. Dr Yeh told me when I woke up that my uterus and tubes looked perfect. There was another doctor that walked in during the procedure to observe and also notated that they aren't used to seeing a uterus that looked that perfect. The doctor stated he didn't think anything would come back from my biopsy, but results could take a week and to stay on BC until then.

Reflections. My egg retrieval was on 1/20/17 last year. Today is 1/16/18. Exactly one year later, I am still doing IVF. I never in my wildest dreams would assume I would still be doing this a year later.

I am always grateful that I have a loving and supportive husband. Nick is my rock. He's calm and stoic and everything I need when I need it. I am lucky in that respect.

Hate BC

I am not a fan of the birth control pills that the clinic puts me on. Although, it will be short lived, I feel my temper is short and I am more moody.
Nick and I opted not to do the ERA this cycle. I am fresh minded and not beaten down from this process. Not yet anyways, so we are going to do the biopsy and go straight into a FET with adding in Lovenox.

Plan of action for 2018

I met with Dr Yeh yesterday. It was good to see all the same faces at the clinic. I really like my doctor and the ladies that work there. I had anxiety on the way there and while pressing the elevator button to the second floor.

Was I really ready to start this process all over again? Yes! All hard roads lead to good things.


The follow-up meeting went well. I am basically at the last step in the process and it's a probability game. I have several frozen, high quality, genetically normal embryos and it's more of getting me to implant.
I brought in a list to discuss. Dr Yeh stated the clinic only does evidence based procedures, so no to intrallipid infusions and neupogen washes.


He gave me the option to do an ERA with a biopsy and then do another FET adding in Lovenox and more progesterone. Nick and I are still discussing whether to do a FET first while I am fresh minded and not beaten down from this process OR do the ERA and then transfer. We are still undecided and have time to think.


I had bloodwork done and an u/s as well since I was on CD 52 with no period in sight.


2018 will be our year!!!

FET #4	Labs CD-52
	1/4/2018
Progesterone	0.371
Estradiol	42.8
LH	22.53
Endo Thickness	4.96
FSH	9.95
TSH Free T4
HCG Beta	<0.1