Nursery Complete! Updated at 25w+5d

I have been dreaming of designing this nursery for years! This bedroom has remained empty the six years we have lived in our home. The room faces the street and lets in all this natural light. The window has views of trees and bushes with blooming flowers.

Last year when we started the IVF process, I was so naive that it would work right away, that I started purchasing items for the nursery. A year and a half later, my dream for this room is now a reality with Matheson due this Fall.

All in all, I have spent $4000+ on this dream nursery. I submitted this to Project Nursery and it was featured on their Instagram page and website! Squeal....
 https://projectnursery.com/projects/mathesons-nursery/

Links to all items in the nursery:

Rissa Crystal Beaded Chandler: PBK 
Modern Tuffed Wingback Rocker: PBK
Moroccan Leather Pouf - Amazon
Sloan Acrylic Crib - PBK
Ribbon Trim Roman Shade - PB Teen
Jumbo Giraffe - PBK
Lamp - Home Goods
Prints: Etsy
White Frames - Amazon
Lorena Canals ABC Rug - The Tot
Babyletto Spruce Tree Bookcase - Amazon
Ceramic Elephant Nightlight - PBK
Alpha Critters Small Tote - Project Nursery 
Quote Decal - Etsy
Elephant Wall Plaque - PBK
Harper Giraffe Quilt - PBK (Bought on Ebay for $60)
Giraffe Crib Sheet - PBK

Grey 6-Cube Bookcase - Crate and Kids

Wood and Wire cube Bin - Crate and Kids
Canvas Blue Cube Bin - Crate and Kids
Ultrasound Frame - Buy Buy Baby

Reese Dresser & Topper - PBK

Mama Roo swing - Received as gift
Ubbi Diaper Pail - Amazon
Personalized Acrylic Name - PBK
Grey Elephant bin - Home Goods
Changing pad + cover - Buy Buy Baby 

MFM Appt

No mass was found! I had an extensive ultrasound where baby boy was checked and measured. He is great!
I did end up with a large subchronic hemorrage. So either I will get more bleeding or possibly it could absorb. This was the best outcome we could have asked for. I just need to take it easy for a few weeks. I already told work I was on bedrest for a few weeks and I am plan on doing just that.... taking it easy. There is no none cause for SCH, but I wonder if stress could have caused it?

Nick and I left the office with some peace. Got Torchys Tacos and came home and rested. This pregnancy has not been easy. I just need to keep the eye on the prize and make it to October.

Also, the reason I couldn't hear his heartbeat on the doppler is that the placenta is at the top covering the baby, so I likely won't feel him for awhile and it would be hard to hear him on the doppler too.

15w2d May 8 - One year loss anniversary, Bleeding scare and referral to MFM

Yesterday was a day I have been dreading. The one year anniversary of our loss. I woke up knowing I would feel sad, but instantly felt tears filling my eyes. I am not one to dwell on the past, but I felt the need to FEEL. I am completely grateful for the little boy inside of me, but it's hard not to imagine what my life would be like today if we never heard those words, "There are no heartbeats".

About 9am that morning, I was working from home and walked into the bedroom and saw Daisy under the bed. She looked so cute, so I laid on the floor on belly to pet her. Within seconds, I felt like I had urinated on myself. I got up and my leggings were covered in blood. I panicked and called Nick. I already had a doctor's appointment scheduled that afternoon, but the office had called to reschedule. My phone rang and I was like I need to get in today as I am now bleeding. They scheduled me right away with a nurse practictioner and an ultrasound first.

Nick met me at the office. It took me 45 minutes in traffic and I couldn't stop crying. I was gushing bright red blood and just knew I was miscarrying. You are not supposed to bleed in your second trimester. I finally arrived and wore my sunglasses in the building and cried in the waiting room.

When it was my turn and the ultrasound tech put the wand on my belly, I held my breath.... please, please, please be ok. AND HE WAS! His heart was beating 159 bpm and he was measuring right on time at 15w2d. I was still crying at this point to know that he was ok.

Happiness turned scary as the tech saw a unknown mass on my cervix that was causing the bleeding. Instead of just writing notes and sending the info electronically, she went upstairs with us to inform her findings to the NP. After an exam, I was referred to Maternal Fetal Medicine, MFM, a specialist in high risk pregnancies. I had an appointment the next day at 8:30am. I needed to keep my worry in check until then. I mean it all didn't make sense. I had a hysteroscopy in January, no polyps or masses were seen. I had an ultrasound every week from week 5 to week 12. How had something grown in 3 weeks since my last ultrasound?? Worst case scenarios flooded my mind: cancer, preterm delivery, loss of pregnancy. I needed to stay calm until the MFM appointment.