Blah

I am just so blah! I am tired even with getting enough sleep. I don't want to wake up in the morning and I feel lazy. Tristan has been out of town for the past week with his dad, so I have had plenty of me time. Work isn't stressful. The weight gain is ridiculous. I don't even look like me when I see my reflection. This process is beating me down. I cried last night because Doogan chewed up my heating pad and my tummy was aching. Please, please let all this be worth it.


After I clicked post, I realized what date it was. Today marks the three month anniversary of my miscarriage.  It hurts to think how far along I would be. That we would have babies in the house for Christmas.