FET# 3

Today is July 1st, Tristan's 9th birthday. I've been doing IVF treatments now for 7 months. Seven months of weekly (sometimes twice a week) appointments. I had to switch to my left arm for bloodwork as the right arm was just done with all the needle pokes.


I start the estrogen pills and patches on Monday, July 3rd. I am not as excited as previous attempts. After the miscarriage, I needed to take my mind of all things baby. I was buying stuff for the nursery and baby clothes for five months. Right now, everything is closed off in the would be nursery. I stopped reading articles and pinning things on Pinterest. I just needed a break from it all. My heart was starting to ache more than I could handle.


To do this, I needed a project. I have been refocusing my energy on redecorating the house. Finally, all the icky yellow beige paint is gone and all common areas were painted a fresh light grey. The space feels open and renewed. Also, I had new light fixtures installed in the dining room and kitchen. I redid the foyer with a settee and décor. I replaced artwork on the walls. We will still need to get the floors done and that has been a contentious debate for quite some time now. It will be done eventually. By doing all of this, I wasn't pinning away until my next weekly clinic visit. I wasn't thinking about the next step on what to do next to get pregnant and stay pregnant.


I am still a member on a private FB page called IVF Support, so I am still engaged with others during this journey.


Will this time be it for us? With a transfer on 7/21/17, this puts me potential due date on my birthday. Is that a sign? Can I raise an Aries being an Aries? Time will tell. Wish me luck.