After a much needed hiatus, where I removed myself from all things baby for months. I logged off the blogs, online forums and private FB groups. There was no more discussion of IVF next steps. No more pinning baby stuff on Pinterest, nothing. I filled the holiday season with parties and activities. Every weekend from Halloween to NYE was booked. I allowed myself to be sad around my due date. Pretending it wasn't going to bother me wasn't the right way and I knew I needed to process my emotions to move past them.
I have an appointment with Dr Yeh on January 8, 2018 to discuss additional testing and do another frozen transfer. I am hopeful that 2018 will be a year of new beginnings for our family. I hope to add another stocking to our mantle and snuggle a baby by the time 2019 rolls around. Hopeful.
I need to find a way to do this, so that the process doesn't take over our lives and define us. How do I undergo treatment and not obsess? Is that possible?
On something we can control, I think I am meant to be a boy mom. So I am giving up my dream to have a daughter and we decided to transfer one male embryo on the next FET.
We have 2 males and 1 female PGS tested embryo left along with 9 untested embryos. Along with a $2600 credit on our account at HFI.
Things on my list to discuss.
- Natural Killer (NK) cell testing/ autoimmune disorder testing
- Intralipid Infusion as preventative
- Hysteroscopy with biopsy (to check for endometrisis)
- Neupogen wash or injections?
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