September 1 was Nick's 40th birthday and also the day Matheson turned 11 months and said, Mama for the first time. It was quite a day!
Matty has had the same nap schedule for months, but it just changed about a week or so ago. He will now take a morning nap exactly 3 hours after waking and the afternoon nap is much later.
6-6:30am Wake
Bottle
8-8:30 Breakfast
9-9:30 Morning nap (about an hour)
Bottle
12-12:30 Lunch
1-1:30pm Afternoon nap for about an hour
2:30-3pm Snack after waking with small bottle
5-5:30pm Dinner
6:45pm Bath and book
7pm - Bedtime
Matheson will let go and stand unassisted for about 20 seconds. He's attempted one step so far that I have seen and grabbed Doogan for balance. He crawls so fast that I don't think he has any interest in walking unassisted yet.
We stopped putting the Owlet on him as well as he was moving the monitor with his other foot causing the alarm to go off. So many changes. In just a few short weeks, I won't have a baby anymore. Sniff Sniff. I will have a toddler and I am not ok with how fast this year has flown by!
Wednesday, September 4, 2019
Sunday, August 4, 2019
10 months old
10 months old.
This year is just blowing by so fast. Matheson is my last baby and I don't want the baby year to be done just yet.
The last week the finally arrived at the perfect 7-7 sleep routine. Down at 7pm and awake at 7am. A solid 12 hours of uninterrupted slumber.
Dada was Matty's first word. He's with mama all day and yet, dada gets the glory. He's also said dog and hi. Not often and not when prompted, but he has said them multiple times.
We started going to the little gym for babies called My Gym. There is a class at 11:15am on Tuesdays for 7-13 months. Matheson loves it! He is so social and I get to talk to other moms as well. He plays and explores the entire hour and afterwards there is open gym for children of all ages. He plays there too and is fascinated watching the big boys run and jump around. Fearless.
I am anxiously awaiting for him to take his first steps. I know, I know, I just typed I don't want him to grow up, but with his size, most people wonder why he isn't walking. It will be easier when I can put him down and he can stand and I don't have to worry about him crawling on a dirty floor.
This year is just blowing by so fast. Matheson is my last baby and I don't want the baby year to be done just yet.
The last week the finally arrived at the perfect 7-7 sleep routine. Down at 7pm and awake at 7am. A solid 12 hours of uninterrupted slumber.
Dada was Matty's first word. He's with mama all day and yet, dada gets the glory. He's also said dog and hi. Not often and not when prompted, but he has said them multiple times.
We started going to the little gym for babies called My Gym. There is a class at 11:15am on Tuesdays for 7-13 months. Matheson loves it! He is so social and I get to talk to other moms as well. He plays and explores the entire hour and afterwards there is open gym for children of all ages. He plays there too and is fascinated watching the big boys run and jump around. Fearless.
I am anxiously awaiting for him to take his first steps. I know, I know, I just typed I don't want him to grow up, but with his size, most people wonder why he isn't walking. It will be easier when I can put him down and he can stand and I don't have to worry about him crawling on a dirty floor.
Monday, July 8, 2019
Packing for baby's first flight
***Update. What I used and what I didn't (Links included)
Diaper Bag:
Ear Planes: plugs for air pressure for babies' ears - Matty pulled those out in the first five minutes! Not worth it.
2 food pouches
Puffs and other baby snacks - This was the best thing ever to occupy time!
Gummi Mat to put snacks on. This worked great on the tray table and restaurant
2 new toys for flight
Small new book
Lysol wipes
Diapers, wipes
Hand sanitizer
3 bottles - One bottle during takeoff and one towards end of flight
Formula container and sample can of formula
Sippy cup, filled with water
3 binkies, one with strap
Muslin blanket - This worked well to cover him while sleeping
Saline nose wipes - Didn't use
Toss away bibs - These didn't work out well as he ripped off the paper bib that was secured only with a sticker
Car seat in Gate check bag - I bought a cheap one on Amazon that did not have backpack straps. It was difficult for Nick to haul the carseat plus all our luggage. Lesson learned. Next trip will buy the more expensive one with straps.
Stroller to check at gate - I am glad we brought the Bugaboo Bee5 rather than the smaller umbrella stroller. He spent allot of time in the stroller and the Bee is comfortable and very maneuverable.
Ergobaby carrier - This was another win! Matty was completely happy in backpack carry. We took turns wearing him when he didn't want to be in his stroller or where a stroller wasn't permitted.
Large suitcase to check:
Travel high chair- This worked great for eating in the hotel room
Several toys for hotel room
Diapers, wipes
Food pouches, formula
Travel bottle soap, bottle brush
Extra bottles
Woolino Sleepsack
Crib sheet and blanket (for cushioning) for rollaway crib
Sound machine and charger
Owlet and charger
A roll of paper towels
Pump hand soap for bathroom
Diaper Bag:
Ear Planes: plugs for air pressure for babies' ears -
2 food pouches
Puffs and other baby snacks - This was the best thing ever to occupy time!
Gummi Mat to put snacks on. This worked great on the tray table and restaurant
2 new toys for flight
Small new book
Lysol wipes
Diapers, wipes
Hand sanitizer
3 bottles - One bottle during takeoff and one towards end of flight
Formula container and sample can of formula
Sippy cup, filled with water
3 binkies, one with strap
Muslin blanket - This worked well to cover him while sleeping
Saline nose wipes - Didn't use
Toss away bibs - These didn't work out well as he ripped off the paper bib that was secured only with a sticker
Car seat in Gate check bag - I bought a cheap one on Amazon that did not have backpack straps. It was difficult for Nick to haul the carseat plus all our luggage. Lesson learned. Next trip will buy the more expensive one with straps.
Stroller to check at gate - I am glad we brought the Bugaboo Bee5 rather than the smaller umbrella stroller. He spent allot of time in the stroller and the Bee is comfortable and very maneuverable.
Ergobaby carrier - This was another win! Matty was completely happy in backpack carry. We took turns wearing him when he didn't want to be in his stroller or where a stroller wasn't permitted.
Large suitcase to check:
Travel high chair- This worked great for eating in the hotel room
Several toys for hotel room
Diapers, wipes
Food pouches, formula
Travel bottle soap, bottle brush
Extra bottles
Woolino Sleepsack
Crib sheet and blanket (for cushioning) for rollaway crib
Sound machine and charger
Owlet and charger
A roll of paper towels
Pump hand soap for bathroom
9 months old and first illness
My 9 month old looks like a toddler and I am not ok with this.
23lbs/ 30" long wearing 18 month clothing.
Matty is cruising all the furniture now and pushing push toys. Naps and nighttime sleep are still consistent. Although, he has started headbanging to put himself to sleep in the crib.
The day Matheson turned 9 months old, he got his first fever. A rectal temperature of 102.8. It was also his brother's 11th birthday. Matheson was fine that morning, but felt a little warm when he woke up from his nap. We rushed off to Main Event for Tristan to celebrate his birthday with his friend.
During the two hours we were at Main Event, Matty got very sick and was hot to the touch and lethargic. The next day, I took him to the doctor. A viral infection. We were told and just push fluids and Tylenol. He stopped eating solids and was up the entire night crying. Matty was extremely fussy and cried all the next day. The doctor called the next day as a followup and asked me to look in his mouth and sure enough, his poor little mouth was covered in ulcers! No wonder he wouldn't eat and was so miserable!
Hand Foot and Mouth Disease.
Ugh. I heard about this before, but Tristan never got it.
He also developed a rash on the side of his face and around his mouth. The 4th of July, Thursday, we made our first visit to Urgent Care. The rash was Impedigo and he was prescribed a cream, which cleared it up within the first few applications. For the ulcers in the his mouth, equal parts of Maalox and Benadryl were mixed to squirt in his mouth to help with the pain. He also had spots on his hands and legs. At this point, I was rotating Tylenol and Motrin. My poor baby's first illness was a doozy!
On day 5, he finally started eating a little again. By day 6, all blisters were gone in his mouth and on his skin. This illness knocked out our entire family! Tristan and I were ill with flu like symptoms for about 24 hours. Nick was the last to get sick and his lasted longer with some bumps on his hands and a sore throat. Apparently, adults get a very mild reaction and nothing like children.
The only public place Matheson had been prior to getting sick was the gym childcare center at Lifetime Fitness. I felt terrible! I became at stay at home mom to not put him in daycare, but I thought an hour here and there would be good for social interaction and I would get a little me time to work on getting back in shape. Ugh, you just can't win sometimes as a mom.
23lbs/ 30" long wearing 18 month clothing.
Matty is cruising all the furniture now and pushing push toys. Naps and nighttime sleep are still consistent. Although, he has started headbanging to put himself to sleep in the crib.
The day Matheson turned 9 months old, he got his first fever. A rectal temperature of 102.8. It was also his brother's 11th birthday. Matheson was fine that morning, but felt a little warm when he woke up from his nap. We rushed off to Main Event for Tristan to celebrate his birthday with his friend.
During the two hours we were at Main Event, Matty got very sick and was hot to the touch and lethargic. The next day, I took him to the doctor. A viral infection. We were told and just push fluids and Tylenol. He stopped eating solids and was up the entire night crying. Matty was extremely fussy and cried all the next day. The doctor called the next day as a followup and asked me to look in his mouth and sure enough, his poor little mouth was covered in ulcers! No wonder he wouldn't eat and was so miserable!
Hand Foot and Mouth Disease.
Ugh. I heard about this before, but Tristan never got it.
He also developed a rash on the side of his face and around his mouth. The 4th of July, Thursday, we made our first visit to Urgent Care. The rash was Impedigo and he was prescribed a cream, which cleared it up within the first few applications. For the ulcers in the his mouth, equal parts of Maalox and Benadryl were mixed to squirt in his mouth to help with the pain. He also had spots on his hands and legs. At this point, I was rotating Tylenol and Motrin. My poor baby's first illness was a doozy!
On day 5, he finally started eating a little again. By day 6, all blisters were gone in his mouth and on his skin. This illness knocked out our entire family! Tristan and I were ill with flu like symptoms for about 24 hours. Nick was the last to get sick and his lasted longer with some bumps on his hands and a sore throat. Apparently, adults get a very mild reaction and nothing like children.
The only public place Matheson had been prior to getting sick was the gym childcare center at Lifetime Fitness. I felt terrible! I became at stay at home mom to not put him in daycare, but I thought an hour here and there would be good for social interaction and I would get a little me time to work on getting back in shape. Ugh, you just can't win sometimes as a mom.
Tuesday, June 11, 2019
And it's over.
My reproductive years have come to an end with the failure of my 5th frozen embryo transfer.
I don't feel like my family is complete, but it is what it is. I tried and I suffered in the process.
Life is never fair.
I don't feel like my family is complete, but it is what it is. I tried and I suffered in the process.
Life is never fair.
Sunday, June 2, 2019
Symptoms during 2WW
0dp5dt - Transfer day, no symptoms
1dp5dt - Felt wonderful. Couldn't sleep, lower back pain late evening
2dp5dt - feel great, lower back pain, slight cramping, took 2 hour nap, frequent night urination
3dp5dt - night sweats, lower back pain, cramps,
4dp5dt - tired, cramps.PM: felt crappy and exhausted, went to bed early
5dp5pt - Felt better today, only lower back pain. I tested 3 times today with 3 different types of early pregnancy tests. All stark white negative. I had a squinter by today with Matheson. I feel like I am out of the game.
6dp5dt - Both morning tests were negative. All my symptoms are gone.
I am so incredibly sad. I know it's over even though I still have three days left. All of this, all the suffering: the highs and now the lows for nothing. I was so hopeful to give Matheson a sibling to grow up with. Life is never fair. Was it my attitude, "It it works, great; if not, closure"? Did I not try hard enough? No acupuncture or pineapple core? Did I not rest enough or rest too much? Was I just not meant to be a mother of three? Am I greedy? I was lucky enough to undergo fertility treatments and have two awesome, beautiful sons, shouldn't that be enough? I type this sucking back snot and wiping away tears.
Matheson is quietly napping in the next room. Tristan is playing video games. We are missing swim class today since I can't get in the water and I am furious about this. I know it's over and I can't do something we enjoy.
AND I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY
I gave up my career to stay home and be the best mom I could be and raise happy, well adjusted sons. We are financially well off. My children don't want for anything. Why does the universe think I am not good enough to have another child? Why!???
7dp5dt - This day came with a low, a high, then another low. I had to go to the clinic for bloodwork that morning. Test was still negative. A few hours later, I took another one and forgot it laying on the bathroom counter. When I remembered about 30 minutes later, there was a distinct second line. In a matter of minutes, I called Nick, updated two online FB groups and texted two friends. About 3 minutes later, the nurse called and told me that my beta was negative. I was shocked. BUT, I'm holding a positive test????? Nurse stated it wasn't possible, so I tried another test and it was negative. For the first time in my life, I had a faulty pregnancy test. My emotions literally went from sad to estatic to completely defeated in a matter of minutes.
8dp5dt - I am at peace. Another negative test. I physical therapy on my foot today and I let the OT do the dry needling and ultrasound heat, both which I declined earlier in the week since it wasn't safe for pregnancy. I have a renewed purpose, lose ALL the weight I gained and get a tummy tuck. I would like to loose a ton before Nick's 40th birthday party in September and then family pictures in November. My goal to be in a bikini by next Summer.
I took PIO tonight, but didn't take Lovenox
9dp5dt - I didn't test today and I stopped meds. I'm not supposed to stop until tomorrow after my final labs, but it's pointless and I am ready to be off hormones.
Labs:
1dp5dt - Felt wonderful. Couldn't sleep, lower back pain late evening
2dp5dt - feel great, lower back pain, slight cramping, took 2 hour nap, frequent night urination
3dp5dt - night sweats, lower back pain, cramps,
4dp5dt - tired, cramps.PM: felt crappy and exhausted, went to bed early
5dp5pt - Felt better today, only lower back pain. I tested 3 times today with 3 different types of early pregnancy tests. All stark white negative. I had a squinter by today with Matheson. I feel like I am out of the game.
6dp5dt - Both morning tests were negative. All my symptoms are gone.
I am so incredibly sad. I know it's over even though I still have three days left. All of this, all the suffering: the highs and now the lows for nothing. I was so hopeful to give Matheson a sibling to grow up with. Life is never fair. Was it my attitude, "It it works, great; if not, closure"? Did I not try hard enough? No acupuncture or pineapple core? Did I not rest enough or rest too much? Was I just not meant to be a mother of three? Am I greedy? I was lucky enough to undergo fertility treatments and have two awesome, beautiful sons, shouldn't that be enough? I type this sucking back snot and wiping away tears.
Matheson is quietly napping in the next room. Tristan is playing video games. We are missing swim class today since I can't get in the water and I am furious about this. I know it's over and I can't do something we enjoy.
AND I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY
I gave up my career to stay home and be the best mom I could be and raise happy, well adjusted sons. We are financially well off. My children don't want for anything. Why does the universe think I am not good enough to have another child? Why!???
7dp5dt - This day came with a low, a high, then another low. I had to go to the clinic for bloodwork that morning. Test was still negative. A few hours later, I took another one and forgot it laying on the bathroom counter. When I remembered about 30 minutes later, there was a distinct second line. In a matter of minutes, I called Nick, updated two online FB groups and texted two friends. About 3 minutes later, the nurse called and told me that my beta was negative. I was shocked. BUT, I'm holding a positive test????? Nurse stated it wasn't possible, so I tried another test and it was negative. For the first time in my life, I had a faulty pregnancy test. My emotions literally went from sad to estatic to completely defeated in a matter of minutes.
8dp5dt - I am at peace. Another negative test. I physical therapy on my foot today and I let the OT do the dry needling and ultrasound heat, both which I declined earlier in the week since it wasn't safe for pregnancy. I have a renewed purpose, lose ALL the weight I gained and get a tummy tuck. I would like to loose a ton before Nick's 40th birthday party in September and then family pictures in November. My goal to be in a bikini by next Summer.
I took PIO tonight, but didn't take Lovenox
9dp5dt - I didn't test today and I stopped meds. I'm not supposed to stop until tomorrow after my final labs, but it's pointless and I am ready to be off hormones.
Labs:
Saturday, June 1, 2019
8 months old
Last month was the most trans formative yet for Matheson!
In May, Matheson's bottom two teeth came in allowing him to start eating bits of food. He also learned how to drink from a straw.
At the end of the month, he started crawling! And literally overnight, Matty.is.everywhere.
Simultaneously with crawling came pulling up, so he was no longer able to use the baby bath tub and now is officially using the big tub to take a bath. Bathtime is such a special time right before bedtime, so watching him splash and play is so enjoyable.
Naps and nighttime sleep are still great and consistent. Matheson loves his new sitter, Mrs Heather. I was worried that since he is home all day with me, he would be weary of strangers, but as long as someone is holding him or playing with him, Matty is good.
I transferred our last embryo yesterday, so I am technically pregnant and hoping his brother stays around for 9 months. If our transfer is successful, he will have a brother 15 months younger than him. I am so excited to watch them grow up and play ball together outside and share a bunk bed. Such idyllic notions I know, but I can't help myself!
In May, Matheson's bottom two teeth came in allowing him to start eating bits of food. He also learned how to drink from a straw.
At the end of the month, he started crawling! And literally overnight, Matty.is.everywhere.
Simultaneously with crawling came pulling up, so he was no longer able to use the baby bath tub and now is officially using the big tub to take a bath. Bathtime is such a special time right before bedtime, so watching him splash and play is so enjoyable.
Naps and nighttime sleep are still great and consistent. Matheson loves his new sitter, Mrs Heather. I was worried that since he is home all day with me, he would be weary of strangers, but as long as someone is holding him or playing with him, Matty is good.
I transferred our last embryo yesterday, so I am technically pregnant and hoping his brother stays around for 9 months. If our transfer is successful, he will have a brother 15 months younger than him. I am so excited to watch them grow up and play ball together outside and share a bunk bed. Such idyllic notions I know, but I can't help myself!
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