I'm tired and yet, I can't sleep. What gives? I woke up at 3am and fell back asleep at 6am right when Nick's alarm was going off.
Also, I was starving this morning. Thirsty for water at lunch time with mild cramps intermittent throughout the day.
I plan on testing tomorrow even though I know it will be too early to see anything.
Monday, February 12, 2018
Sunday, February 11, 2018
2dp5dt
I have had cramps every day since transfer. I hope this is a sign of implantation. I didn't have any cramps this morning until I took the dogs for a long walk. When I got back, I had to lie down for a few minutes. I also woke up at 3:30am and was starving, but that could be a symptom of the Prednisone. The Lovenox injections are going ok so far. I ice before and after and inject the liquid slow. I have just a tiny bruise from the second injection.
I plan on doing my first hpt on Tuesday morning. I have have enough FRERs to do one in the am and one in the pm until Saturday. Nick doesn't want me to test early as not to stress myself out, but I told him not testing was not an option for me. I want to know as soon as it happens.
I plan on doing my first hpt on Tuesday morning. I have have enough FRERs to do one in the am and one in the pm until Saturday. Nick doesn't want me to test early as not to stress myself out, but I told him not testing was not an option for me. I want to know as soon as it happens.
Saturday, February 10, 2018
Friday, February 9, 2018
Transfer Day!!! Not what we planned
Our 4th transfer was full of emotions today.
I couldn't sleep last night even with taking a melatonin. Transfer day is like Christmas as a kid. I tossed and turned and then the alarm went off at 5:30am. We had to leave at 6:30am to bring Tristan to his Nana's, so that she could bring him to school. He is not a morning bear and was very grumpy with the early wake up. We needed to arrive at Piney Point at 7:30am for our 8:30am transfer.
I drank two bottles of water and was ready to go when Dr Yeh came to speak to us. The thawed embryo had started to arrest, which means it was starting to dissenigrate and the probablity was low that it would survive and implant. His solution was to thaw another embryo and transfer both. Also, the lab thawed the wrong embryo. I stated we wanted a boy embryo this time since all our female embryos didn't make it. The lab didn't get the email and thawed a female embryo instead. I wasn't upset with the mistake as I desperately wanted a baby and didn't care at this point the gender. I was just crushed that my embryo was probably not going to make it.
Emotions ran high. I immeditately wanted to transfer two: one male and one female. Nick was unsure as that would only leave us one left and he wasn't too keen on the idea of twins. I started crying and my bladder was about to burst. In end, Dr Yeh was confident that transferring both was our best option as our male that thawed was strong and looked perfect. Studies have shown that stronger embryos can help weaker ones implant.
I needed to do 20 minutes of guided meditation to calm my anxiety. I was able to urinate for 3 seconds only to let out some of the pain in my very full bladder. 45 minutes later I was laying on the table with Nick holding my hand as we had done many times before. It was painful, but it was all worth it to see that beautiful flash of light. Both embryos were now nesting in my uterus.
The TWW has begun. We left the clinic in search of Torchy's Tacos as neither of us had breakfast and was starving. I also started Lovenox injections tonight which burned during and after injection. I hope this will work. All of this has to be for something.
At this point, I have now experienced everything it seemed. Failed cycles, miscarriage and an embryo that didn't thaw successfully. Have I not suffered enough? Can this please be our time? I am content right now. I am hopeful at least one embryo will implant and would be estatic for twins. I always stated I wanted back what I lost that May day. Oddly enough, the special socks I bought for the transfer were blue with pink milkshakes. Maybe this wasn't planned this way, but was supposed to happen all along? Time will tell. I also wore a fertility bracelet that I bought on Etsy. I am hopeful for good luck even though I still believe we make our own luck. At this point, I have done everything I can possibly do to have a baby and expand our family.
Godspeed embryos. And now, we wait....
I couldn't sleep last night even with taking a melatonin. Transfer day is like Christmas as a kid. I tossed and turned and then the alarm went off at 5:30am. We had to leave at 6:30am to bring Tristan to his Nana's, so that she could bring him to school. He is not a morning bear and was very grumpy with the early wake up. We needed to arrive at Piney Point at 7:30am for our 8:30am transfer.
I drank two bottles of water and was ready to go when Dr Yeh came to speak to us. The thawed embryo had started to arrest, which means it was starting to dissenigrate and the probablity was low that it would survive and implant. His solution was to thaw another embryo and transfer both. Also, the lab thawed the wrong embryo. I stated we wanted a boy embryo this time since all our female embryos didn't make it. The lab didn't get the email and thawed a female embryo instead. I wasn't upset with the mistake as I desperately wanted a baby and didn't care at this point the gender. I was just crushed that my embryo was probably not going to make it.
Emotions ran high. I immeditately wanted to transfer two: one male and one female. Nick was unsure as that would only leave us one left and he wasn't too keen on the idea of twins. I started crying and my bladder was about to burst. In end, Dr Yeh was confident that transferring both was our best option as our male that thawed was strong and looked perfect. Studies have shown that stronger embryos can help weaker ones implant.
I needed to do 20 minutes of guided meditation to calm my anxiety. I was able to urinate for 3 seconds only to let out some of the pain in my very full bladder. 45 minutes later I was laying on the table with Nick holding my hand as we had done many times before. It was painful, but it was all worth it to see that beautiful flash of light. Both embryos were now nesting in my uterus.
The TWW has begun. We left the clinic in search of Torchy's Tacos as neither of us had breakfast and was starving. I also started Lovenox injections tonight which burned during and after injection. I hope this will work. All of this has to be for something.
At this point, I have now experienced everything it seemed. Failed cycles, miscarriage and an embryo that didn't thaw successfully. Have I not suffered enough? Can this please be our time? I am content right now. I am hopeful at least one embryo will implant and would be estatic for twins. I always stated I wanted back what I lost that May day. Oddly enough, the special socks I bought for the transfer were blue with pink milkshakes. Maybe this wasn't planned this way, but was supposed to happen all along? Time will tell. I also wore a fertility bracelet that I bought on Etsy. I am hopeful for good luck even though I still believe we make our own luck. At this point, I have done everything I can possibly do to have a baby and expand our family.
Godspeed embryos. And now, we wait....
Thursday, February 8, 2018
Feeling great day before transfer
I woke up feeling great today, which is so odd! I slept well and woke up well rested. No night sweats. No cramps. No headaches. No exhaustion. My butt isn't sore from PIO.
My hair, makeup and clothing were all on point today. I was smiling on my commute.
I hope this is a good sign that my transfer tomorrow will be successful!
My hair, makeup and clothing were all on point today. I was smiling on my commute.
I hope this is a good sign that my transfer tomorrow will be successful!
Monday, February 5, 2018
Great lining!
Nothing spells relief like getting a good ultrasound! Lining is best it's ever been at 12mm and triple stripe! No bleeding and no fluid.
We are good to transfer on 2/9/18!
We are good to transfer on 2/9/18!
| FET #4 | Labs CD-52 | Baseline | CD-6 | CD-10 |
| 1/4/2018 | 1/18/2018 | 1/26/2018 | 1/30/2018 | |
| Progesterone | 0.371 | 0.145 | <0.050 | 0.159 |
| Estradiol | 42.8 | <5.00 | 359.9 | 614.7 |
| LH | 22.53 | 4.47 | 5.48 | 3.69 |
| Endo Thickness | 4.96 | 6.43 | 9.22 | 11.83 |
| 9.95 | 2.37 |
Thoughts for my future child
Yesterday was Super Bowl Sunday.
Nick and I attended a party at a friend's house. I couldn't drink alcohol and I passed the celebratory jello shots on to Nick. We needed to do my PIO injection at 7:30pm which coincided with halftime. We snuck into our friend's bathroom with a cold beer to numb my backside and quickly did the injection and went back to the party. A sly smile on our faces as we exited the room together.
Future son, you are so loved that I have endured so much just to bring you into existence!
Nick and I attended a party at a friend's house. I couldn't drink alcohol and I passed the celebratory jello shots on to Nick. We needed to do my PIO injection at 7:30pm which coincided with halftime. We snuck into our friend's bathroom with a cold beer to numb my backside and quickly did the injection and went back to the party. A sly smile on our faces as we exited the room together.
Future son, you are so loved that I have endured so much just to bring you into existence!
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